currently: beep thump beep

*listening to VNV Nation, FuturePerfect*

O.O Moo.

currently: bleehh

*listening to De/Vision*

I'm so tired... Murr. And my mood has been steadily declining all day. I'm too tired to even watch my friend on the first episode of The Amazing Race 3, so I'm recording it.

Feh. I don't know why I'm worn out. It could be any number of things, ranging from lack of sleep to stress to my immune system being shot. Or all of that and more.

My finger's still sorta swollen and isn't bending too well. Looks sorta like a vienna sausage that's been gnawed on by a cat. There's a pretty image.

In addition to this, I want to duck under my chair and hide from the world for a while. Everything's been drowning whatever's left of my poor brain after a weekend of being stoned and then a fever the next week. I pity the poor chunk of gray goop floating inside my skull right now. I'm still disoriented. I remember feeling like this after being sick when I was a child. It's that bizarre state in which you constantly question reality and worry that you're hallucinating again.

*New Order comes on*

I'm supposed to go to a goth club this Friday. This should provide a little amusement, since I haven't been freak watching in a while. I promise I'll try not to laugh until I'm outside. It almost takes a wild horses to drag me to a club, but I'm going. People are always prescribing it to me like medication, so the least I can do is take it and call them in the morning.

I guess I'm just in a poopy mood because I'm stressed about school when I shouldn't be. It isn't that hard, I just need to study. If only I could muster the energy to do that. And my mind is elsewhere when I'm in class, anymore. Worrying about other things. Causing more worry and worrying about that. I'm going to wear myself into an ulcer if this continues.

*back to De/Vision*

I could really go for hearing your voice right about now. I could go for a story or two and a good night's sleep.

And here, I leave you.

When I'm with you, baby, I go out of my head
I just can't get enough
I just can't get enough
All the things you do to me and everything you said
I just can't get enough
I just can't get enough

currently: disappointed

*listening to the 80's station*

woo... my finger's swollen. eww

I've been thinking about people a lot, lately. Namely, a few that continue to fail themselves or progress as human beings. I have little room to write on the matter, but I have to rant, anyway.

I'm not dusgusted with them but disappointed in an almost parental sort of way. These people that have so much potential, or these people that have such dreams for their future.... ruining themselves or not even trying. And I've tried to nudge them in the right direction or advise them in a positive way. But screw it. Some people are beyond help.

I'm beginning to not care anymore. Watch me walk away.

currently: skjslafh fucking cat

So, my mom called this morning around 8:30 am, asking if I would come help her catch on of her cats to take it to the vet. I reluctantly agreed, considering I was still in bed and could have easily rolled over and gone back to sleep. It is my day off, after all. But I went. The little fucker is deathly afraid of humans and has been since it sprang from the womb, I believe. I mananged to corner her in the hallway and tried to ensnare her in a blanket and grab her by the scruff. Well, she didn't take this too well and scratched the hell out of my arm and took a chunk out of my finger. >X[ Needless to say, I gave up on her after that. I cleaned the scratches and bite marks with peroxide. Oww. Now, I'm bandaged in Pikachu band-aids, except for on my wrist since the scratches were too large to bandage. An adrenalin rush made me so shaky, I could barely hold onto a q-tip to clean the wounds with. I'm still sorta trembly. Rarr.

*turns on Vast, Visual Audio Sensory Theatre*

I don't hold anything against the cat. It was a stray kitten that my mom took in. A stray. An alley cat. I don't hold anything against my mother, either, as she just wanted to take care of the little thing and have her spayed. But I hope she doesn't keep it. A little stray like that has no business being indoors.

My middle finger is nearly out of commission. She bit right into the crease before my finger tip, right before my fingernail, and a bit closer to the knuckle before the nail. My mom wanted to take me to the doctor. Fehh to that. It'll be okay. It's not as bad as it sounds. Should leave some scars, though. Grr.

What a way to start my day off. =/

Looks like I really poor suicide attempt on my wrist. And the Pikachus on my finger are mocking me.

I didn't wanna hurt you, baby, I didn't wanna hurt you. I didn't wanna hurt you, but you're pretty when you cry.

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... I cannot deny it.

I spent 4 hours talking with a chick I work with after work. O_O I haven't just sat and chatted like that in ages. We had lunch in there somewhere, I assure you.

Ah... foo. I have class tonight. blah. I get to sleep in tomorrow, though. =D

currently: I harpoon your ass

Can't sleep. Clowns will eat me.
Well, I was so tired earlier this evening that I had to go to bed rather than watch the first dvd of X (I almost cried when I was switching the audio to Japanese and it said English again... though it really was Japanese--phew). That was around 8, I think. Then my mom called and woke me up. asfahfjgfh. And I returned to bed around 10. Now, I'm up again. O__O Dammit. Dammit dammit. And I have a slight headache. Murr.

Maybe I'll go take a shower. MMmm.

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Eh... if that means I'm like Christopher Walken's Gabriel, okay.

currently: ouch

*listening to Vast, Music for People*

I dun wanna go to class! wahhhhhh *tantrum* I'd rather get a euro aenima... inside joke, move along right along. Class is no big deal, really... I just hate feeling like I'm behind in everything and having to grab onto the bumper as I get dragged along as the rest of the class goes onto other things. Know what I mean? Pretend for me.

Blah. I bought more dvds. >_< *sob* I'm becoming a compulsive shopper like my mother. I bought the first X dvd and GTO volume 4. *drools* If I didn't have to go to class, I'd watch them now.

HUrrffFf. Kingdom Hearts makes me want to go watch old Disney movies. Sleeping Beauty is da shit! Despite the over-commercialism of Disney in the last decade, you have to admit that they make excellent movies (with a few exceptions). But all these half-assed, straight to video sequals are pure shit. Cinderella 2? That's blasphemy!

Anyhow, I can't wait to see Spirited Away... wonder when it comes out.

My freakishly small hands and I must depart now. Au Revoir.