Currently: la la la

*listening to Poe, VNV Nation, and Boa*

You make me smile too much.

If the sun refused to shine
I would still be loving you
When mountains crumble to the sea
There will still be you and me
Led Zeppelin

I don't really have anything to write right now. I'm content with listening to your voice and hearing the lil' sighs and groans you make between words.

Wild
I go wild cause you break me open
Wild cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken

Wild because the chips are down
Wild because there isn't anybody else around
Wild when the waves start to break
And God knows they're breaking in me now

I go wild 'cause it doesn't make sense
For me to cry out in my own defense
Wild 'cause I would do anything
To tear you off your precious fence

So this is what it's like living in limbo
First I'm high then I'm solo

I go wild
'Cause you break me open
Wild
'Cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild
When I know you're near
I go wild
I go wild

Tell me what you've come for
Moving like a hunter through my back door
Leaving the perfume of all you adore
To die nameless on my floor

Yeah well we both know you don't play fair
I guess you really think that you get me there
Let's be honest perhaps this little ride
Is too much for even you to bear

You've got some nerve to come back here
You're not the only one who can smell fear

I go wild
'Cause you break me open
Wild
'Cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild
Don't you get it dear
You're not the only one who runs on instincts
No I've got instincts of my own

You've got a lot of nerve to come back
Plan your attack yeah I am still waiting
You wrote the rules to try to contain me
You broke 'em
Now you have untamed me
I go wild
I go wild

Tell me what you've come for
What is it you adore
Won't you tell me?
What would you cry for?
Swallow your pride for?
What would you
Go wild for?
You've got a lot of nerve to come back here
Speak up my darling I have been waiting

I go wild
'Cause you break me open
Wild
'Cause you left me here
I go wild
'Cause your promises are broken
Wild
Don't you get it dear
You're not the only one who runs on instincts
No I've got instincts of my own

You've got a lot of nerve to come back
Plan your attack and I am still waiting
Did you want something?
You wrote the rules to try and contain me
You broke 'em
Now you haven't tamed me
I go wild
I go wild
~Poe

I didn't sleep last night. *sly grin* No, I went to work at 6am and came home and called my lovely. And then I took a well-deserved nap. It wasn't nearly long enough, but I will sleep like a rock tonight, so it's okay. Heh...... where's that number?

Sing it.

12:09 a.m

currently: hfffff

*listening to Apop, "Soultaker"*

This song is for those lovely people that try to worm their ways back into your life even after you've sliced them off with a broken bottle. You could crawl through that broken glass, wet the ground with blood and tears, but even on your knees the view of you is displeasing.

You're a bad, bad person, green greenie. Slink back to your decaying hole and stay there. Because if you hurt anyone anymore, I just might get bitchy. And I save that for only the special, deserving folk such as yourself.

one day you'll realize that you were wrong, you'll regret that all this happened. some day you you'll realize that you were wrong... left with paranoia as your only friend

My, but I am babbling. It's okay, though.

I know this music
let's... change... the beat.

Gawd, I feel like punching someone really hard right now. RAAAAARRR. I'm rarely violent. Dunno what it is... hmm....

This weekend has been one big moodswing from hell. I need a tranq. I need a break. From pretentious bastards. From pseudo-intellectualists. From people who claim to care but are only interested in pleasing themselves. From emotions.

Maybe I'll request a vacation at work and just drive the fuck away. Alone. Fuck it. Mentally, we're all alone, anyway, right? Physically, yeah, ditto. Leave me; let me think. AAIIIEEEE. Can't think. Want to break something. Want to... no, can't write that.

Hmph

And even though I want to get away, I still can't let you go. Or maybe the sky is coming apart and the radiation is melting my brain. The one I want to ask for help can't do anything for me. His heart's halved.